I love a dark story, I think because I’m always trying to understand the worst of what humans can do so I can think about what to do about it. The danger for me in a dark story, though, is that too few writers are writing from a place I can learn from. Some are putting forth unprocessed material (okay if you want to be there to process it with them) and some are titillated by the dark events (not my bag either). Enter Somia Sadiq and her novel Gajarah, which has become my textbook on how to write about the darkest parts of human behavior with humanity, respect, and foresight.
Honoring Our Stories
The novel centers on Emahn, a Punjabi girl being raised in the U.A.E. with her family who has deep roots in Lahore. Most of the book is in Emahn’s delightful and precocious first-person voice. Poems and myths are also woven in, and from all of this we get a full, rich, and loving picture of Emahn’s family’s life in both countries. This makes us care for her and for them. In life, I also hope that raising a child with this much love builds resilience.
Emahn needs resilience too young, as she is attacked by a stranger one evening very close to her home. We see the before and the after, but Sadiq does not force us to walk through the during. This artistic choice puts a very important focus on Emahn’s experience of the aftermath. Her family reacts in a variety of believable (and sometimes humanly imperfect) ways, but we never doubt their love for her. It’s a family I’d wish for everyone.
There is more to come in Emahn’s life, the trigger warning at the beginning of the book includes rape, sexual abuse, domestic violence, racism, and more. But the book is never about victimhood. It’s about life and love and survival.
“Pain is pain…The how and what is not important. It’s what we do with it that is more important.” – Emahn’s Naano jahn in Gajarah by Somia Sadiq
When not writing, Sadiq is a peace negotiator and conflict readiness strategist and I’m certain that’s where the holistic look at experience and healing in this book comes from. There are many characters who experience tragedy and pain, but each is presented as a whole human and their story is honored. They are also portrayed as more than the things that happened to them and we are reminded to keep our hearts open.
“The strongest way to fight back is to be.
To be in our languages, in our customs, our ways of being. To be comfortable in our own skin. To know inherently in every cell of our bodies that we deserve to be treated with kindness, compassion, fairness, equality.” – Gajarah by Somia Sadiq
Ceremonies of Life
One of the other things I loved about Gajarah was the focus on daily rituals and life in Lahore and in Canada among the Anishinaabeg community. Moments as simple as making burfi on a rooftop and brushing fingers over cedar become meaningful when the proper attention is paid, just as with the rest of life, and I found myself wanting to slow down and look while reading this book (and now, again, just thinking about it). Such is the attention to details that the advance copy of this book that I received came beautifully packaged in materials that recall some of the gorgeous text.
My only regret was that I spent a lot of time wondering whether the words presented in the text were Punjabi or Urdu (such is my imperfect understanding of the region) and I let this curiosity (read: obsession with linguistics) take me out of the sumptuous text sometimes.
Make no mistake, Gajarah deals with some heavy subjects, but I don’t know that I’ve ever read something that felt so alive. I’d tell you more, but I want you to experience it for yourself.
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This slim collection of short stories from Spain contains six sharp looks at different kinds of family secrets: abuse, sexual assault, pregnancy, sexual orientation, adultery, and the process of dying. As most successful short story writers do, López has centered these narratives around key moments so that we’re immediately in the mix.
On the other side of the brevity spectrum is Patrick Ryan’s Buckeye which chronicles life in a small Ohio town over the period of an entire life. The story centers on the Jenkins and Salt families and the way their lives entwine over time. As with All the Things We Don’t Say, there are secrets here, including adultery, sexual orientation, and abandonment, and those secrets shape the destinies of everyone involved. Because it’s such a sweeping book, Ryan can linger on the social events that background (and shape) their lives as well, including wars and the Civil Rights movement.
Though Robert Grainier is said in Train Dreams not to have made it much farther into Montana than Libby, the setting of both stories is similar, both in place and time, though the main action of A River Runs Through It covers a shorter span. Part of what I will always love about these movies, then, is that they remind me of where I grew up. More on imagery below, but there are moments in Train Dreams where I saw the specific texture of bark and the particular splay of needles and thought, “I know that tree!” Both do an excellent job of capturing the expanse of the quiet landscape of the Inland Northwest.
Whereas I can no longer separate the film and book of A River Runs Through It, because they mirror each other so closely and because I’ve read and watched them so many times, I cannot remember reading Train Dreams, though I imagine it was a quiet book and meditative because the movie is this way (and you don’t usually remove the splashy bits when going from page to screen). What I will carry forward from Train Dreams is the imagery, which is perhaps even stronger than the imagery in A River Runs Through It (as beautiful as that was).
The book centers on twin sisters, Agni and Effie who live with their Greek-born parents in Astoria, Queens while going to college. Effie is wilder and Agni quieter, and the fact that they are twins already gives us a chance to explore two ways of blooming from the same circumstance. But because of their heritage and close family ties, we get two other what ifs: living the diaspora or returning home and whether to embrace the city or the country.
It’s not too much of a spoiler to say that the title of this essay refers to a garage door opener. At the event, Zeller told us how she laughed every time she used it to open her large garage in a subdivision of Spokane. One of the many places she lived as a child was in a garage and this essay blends clips from her HOA’s bylaws with details of her childhood as well as things she learned about class in the process of becoming an educator. She also writes about the complex feelings around making a more permanent home, first in the city and then in the suburbs.